Leaping off the cliff!!

I thought I loved my job , really I did like 4 years ago, ha ha, seems like ages since I felt like that but after 7 years in the same job (would have been 8 except that I quit for 11 months once) I am really very tired of it. Don't get me wrong I have a good boss, much much better than most and I make a good salary not great but good and the job itself isn't bad but at this point in my life it just isn't enough, it's not at all what I want to be doing with my life 10 years from now, a year from now or even now. I guess what happened is that while still in the process of learning me I have found that I don't want the conventional nine to five desk job, wearing the power suit and all that. Nope! I want to inspire with the words I write, to inspire and to motivate and I also want to capture the beauty around me with my camera for the world to appreciate and enjoy. That is my passion! At 31 I am tired of settling for less than what I want to do, I want to live my dream but the more I think about it the more I realize that it's like leaping off a cliff without a parachute and no bridge in view. Hmm Scary isn't it? but it's amazing how no matter how much we want things to change in our lives, fear of the unknown tends to keep us cripled and firmly glued to the spot where we are, dreaming of all that could be but afraid to let it be. And so I stand at the edge and wait!

Family Reunion-Belonging is a Beautiful thing!

I am just about ready to do back flips, jump and touch the roof and spin on my head. Why, you ask? Well because I have just started meeting family that I didn't know I had and learning so much about my family and by extension about myself as well.
It is so great to meet the people that are a part of you and you are a part of them. It's funny how you think you know yourself so well, all the quirks, imperfections and personality traits you think makes you unique, then you find your family and find out that some of those things that you thought were uniquely you are actually family traits. I thought I would be unhappy or disappointed to find out I am not the uniquely different individual I thought I was but quite the opposite has happened. I am ecstatic to find that there are a whole bunch of people with similar personality traits like mine. There is this deep sense of belonging to see a photo of a family member you didn't know and realize they look just like you. It gives me thrill to talk to members of my family and realize we say the same crazy things and thing very much alike. It simply puts a smile on my face and this warm fuzzy feeling in my heart.
I have always wanted to be a part of a big, close knitted family and finding out that I actually am a part of one is an awesome start to my 2009.
Learning who I am as an individual and learning to love that person once I found her has been a long hard journey that has brought me to the place where I can celebrate me. Finding my family at this point in my life and learning how very much I belong to and with them is like the icing on the cake.
So now plans for a Family Reunion in 2010 are afoot and to say that I am excited is an understatement. Excitement just doesn't cut it, I am beside myself! I get to meet more people who are just like me and that can be nothing but good. The end result-I will have learned so much more about this person that looks back at me in the mirror and love her even more!
Charles Family Reunion 2K10-can't wait!!!!!!!